Wednesday, 23 February 2005 - 3:55 AM EST

Hi M.A!
i went thru ur web page.
wow! i do see you consciously evolving! your talking stuff beyond conventional wisdom. i'm excited because i see myself at the same cross roads.till a couple of years back i used to take all teh scriptures including the geeta as the gospel truth. gradually i realised that evrything is contradictable. dichotomy is the nature of the universe. so i think all the scriptures, philosphies, gospels are meant to make you realise that the there is no truth except your OWN truth:- THE REAL SELF!
but then again, i cannot hold even this as the ultimate truth. first of all i've not really experienced this. it's all theory. secondly, the one true experience i've had is that even the truth i held most sacred, incontrovertible 2 years back seems crap now. so then maybe u only get that much wisdom at a time that you're ready for. and as u evolve u keep getting appropriate inputs.

keep intelluctualizing the universe aside. i agree with philosophers when they say meditation is the quicker more direct way to experience th truth/self.
u must have had that unmistakable experience during meditation that you've lost track of time and at that moment u are infinitely close to something infinitely big or small(i cannot distinguish!). so that's i guess first hand experience of the DICHOTOMY. now this dichotomy means one more thing:- that nothing really matters....everything is sacred. so ther's no room for judgementalism. this realisation made that egoistic feeling of knowing something more than 'ordinary' people crumble away in me. i feel much lighter now.

ps: i've mailed the same text to u in case u miss this one